A Reminder to Self

On nights that you break down, cry yourself to sleep, wanting and thinking of things not at hand, ponder and reflect on this:

It is harder for us to be grateful for things that we do have. And easier for us to be despondent for things we don't have. Whatever life may (or may not) bring, remember that you are so much blessed (soooo much than you think).

Graciously and wonderfully blessed that you have...

- a perfectly abled body (10 fingers, 10 toes, everything is where and doing what it is supposed to be..this one pa lang winner ka na!)

- a loving family and adorable friends waiting at home

- food to eat, roof for shelter, clothes to wear

- work to keep you busy

- money to spend and share in your pocket

- a boyfriend (di ba? you thought you'll be an old hag)

- ARPC and encouraging pastors and fellowships

- passion and joy for cooking and baking

- work (again?) in Singapore (who would have thought, di ba?)

.....[the list is endless]

And this one, alway keep in mind. Even though one or all of the enumerations above may have gone, most importantly, God had and has you...graciously chosen, mercifully saved and eternally loved.

What more could you ask for? :)

Waiting for His Coming

Three more days and I can't hardly wait. It's been weeks, months since I've anticipated, patiently waited for this. Because finally, this Thursday, I'll be able to see Dan's face once again. And not just for a few days, but for many days to come.Ü

By God's grace, he was able to get a job here in Singapore. I was really happy the moment I knew about it. The idea of us exploring every corner of Singapore, sharing meals, and doing things together delighted my mind and excited my heart. I was busy preparing since then (we've only got 2 weeks!) - looking for his room, thinking of things he needed to buy there, and I here, etc.

And now three more days on my countdown - preparations have been done, a room has been found, plans have been sorted out. Everything seems set and ready.

But now, as I reflect on all the things I've done for Dan these past few days, there's one thing that the Holy Spirit asked and whispered to me - "What are you doing for your Savior's coming?" "Are you prepared?"

I was really struck by the realization of this. And I was reminded, that my whole life is a story of waiting, anticipating and preparing for His coming.

Jesus told us in Mark 13:33 to be alert and be ready for we don't know when the time will come. If that time is now and If I see Christ's face today, I couldn't look at His countenance. If He ask what I've done for Him, I do not know what I'll say.

I'm deeply ashamed right now. My soul grieves with this realization. I humbly ask for forgiveness for my attitude and for not being a true servant.

Yet my whole being is thankful to the Holy Spirit for always..always reminding me that I should lead my life in full anticipation and expectation of Jesus Christ's coming. I really don't know exactly how right now. And I pray, that may the Holy Spirit will lead me, guide me, show me how. Amen.